Her name is HOPE, Hope Aw Yan Sin. She is Nineteen this year. Her first smile was seen on 17 July 1991.
She is currently pursuing her diploma at NYP, Digital Visual Effects.
She's in love with photography, guitar and the special someone♥.
She had great friends who are always by my side whenever she needs them.
She is a Child of God and loving His people always.
You may contact her @ hopeawys@live.com.
Guys are capable of moving on and holding on at the same time.
They just have this ability to hold on and care for you and everything.
At the same time moving on and like another girl.
But I don't wish to know the truth upon me though :(
Yesterday its a super long long day!
Worked till 5. Went home after that.
Bathe and all, went to fellowship with cg :)
Went JusAcia for dinner. :)
We kept laughing non stop.
And thanks W516 for bullying me again =.=
First say Im short =.=
Then after that say I will be shorter =.=
After that compare height and age with younger members.
Being so mean to me. HMPH! :(
Walked all the way to a place to play pool.
Somewhere near plaza sing.
It was full.
So we went parklane mall.
AND I FINALLY BOUGHT MY TUNER! :)
18 bucks just the way I like it :)
I remembered I bought from STC was 30 =.=
And I wanna the 9 dollar capo!! Its really cheap!
If not I got to waste 20 plus dollars for a capo.
Played a few games.
I lost to Martin :(:( Just not my day.
From there, we walked all the way to Clarke Quay.
Everyone was really tired.
But I kinda made them walked a little more. :(
Felt a little bad.
So walked a little faster or slower alone.
Went to the Players :)
Played a few board games.
Snortas, Dirty minds, ping pong in a cup, Darts.
Drank Pure Blonde! :)
I think its not bad :) Compare to those heinekien and Tiger beer.
Wanted take cab home .
Lots of things cropped up in the middle.
In the end Daryn's bro got to fetch us outside their house
and from there we take a cab again.
Its a super long day for me.
Now I gotta rush rush rush!
Today is gonna be a great day! :):)
Pictures will be uploaded soon :)
♥There is always HOPE if you believe 11:44 AM
Saturday, October 30, 2010
What is Love?
Love is giving, forgiving, sacriface without any thing in return.
Maybe return back in love.
Love is affectionate, patient, caring.
Love is the greatest thing on earth :)
When you really try to love someone;
They add in colours to your life.
Paint a whole big rainbow.
Brings a smile to your face every single day.
Its wasnt just a feeling.
Its more than that.
When 2 becomes 1. You will feel for the other party first.
2 is better than 1.
Your never alone.
When one is hurt, another would be sad.
When one is happy, another would be smiling :)
When one is angry, another would try to cheer him/her up.
When one is jealous, another would be laughing. Haha!
Just remember, when your in love, Your never alone :)
Weird how feelings go?
Yeah, its based on your conscience.
But conscience are never accurate.
It varies and change based on what you do everyday.
If a person lie, at first he would think. Hey its wrong.
But if a person kept lying, the feeling of its wrong will fade.
Soon, as years passed. The lie just become a habit.
And slowly he would think that his conscience is clear.
( Thats what I learnt yesterday from Pearly :) )
You know what is the greatest lie in the world?
Its self deception.
Self deception saying that he is gonna come back one day.
That he is the one.
That he still loves you.
That he still miss you.
Wake up.
He had moved on.
He had walked into his life.
A life that you can never enter in again.
You don't belong to him.
Anymore..
Wake up.
When you know he is lying, you push the blame to yourself.
Cause it must be something you did that made him do it.
Haha! What a silly thing to think..
Don't worry, when you see all is darkness.
Don't forget, there is always a light.
A light for you to escape.
A light that brings hope to you again.
A light that light up your day again.
Im having a high fever!
Today worked at MBFC!
THE SCENARY IS REALLY GREAT! :):)
The wires are irritating.
The monitors are heavy :(
I cant believe I forgot to take out my camera.
As I was clearing my inbox.
His name was everywhere.
Reading every msg that he sent is my habit.
But its getting so hurtful that I cant read any longer.
Off to church. I hope to hear what Pastor preach :)
I heard he preached about me.
HOPE! :):) Cant wait to hear it online! :)
In the midst of all, I still wanna say, I still miss him. I just can't get him off my mind. Its eating me away slowly. :(
♥There is always HOPE if you believe 6:51 PM
Hey Peeps :):)
I finally went for cellgroup. :)
LIKE FINALLY!!!
It was great. The word was just right for me.
Heart for Him :)
Be strong and courageous.
I could see it.. When Im sad, he was there. When I was hugging him, I saw its Him.
Telling me everything its gonna be alright :)
He embraced me in His arms. Like he always did.
Don't worry about tomorrow.
Tomorrow will worry by itself.
Everyday we are going through trials.
Every single trials we learnt that we have our weakness.
We need to know our weakness so that we could change.
I needa learn to be strong.
Strengthen our strengths but manage our weakness.
Don't worry about whats in the future.
Cause I've already planned for you. :)
Its great to be loved once again. :)
After the session, my hand numbed.
I don't know what happened.
Just had this tangling feeling. :)
Alright, cg please...
Last week were abit wrong.
This week abit.. Worst?
We chatted from Shit > Urine > Fart > Mens > Pregnant.
WOW! At the dining table =.=
HAHA! But we just cant stop laughing.
Daryn: Now I know your ultimate secret of embarrassment. HAHA!
SUPER FUNNY! :):)
IM GONNA WORK! So tired.. :(:(
♥There is always HOPE if you believe 7:11 AM
Friday, October 29, 2010
TEST SHOTS :):) GREAT CAMERA!
THANK YOU LOVE! :)
♥There is always HOPE if you believe 3:29 PM
Im Officially A good student!
Went for 1 hr lesson :)
Shed a tear, knowing that tonight will be a good night. :)
♥There is always HOPE if you believe 2:27 PM
One In A MillionbyNe-Yo Jet setter Go getter Nothing better Call me Mr. been there done that Top model chick to your every day hood rat Less than all but more than a few But i’ve never met one like you Been all over the world Done a little bit of everything Little bit of everywhere With a little bit of everyone But all the girls i’ve been with Things i’ve seen and taste ? I can be in love But i just don’t know Baby one thing is for certain Whatever you do it’s working All the girls don’t matter In your presence can’t do what you do There’s a million girls around but i don’t see no one but you Girl you’re so one in a million You are Baby you’re the best I ever had Best I ever had And i’m certain that There ain’t nothing better No there ain’t nothing better than this You’re not a regular girl You don’t give a damn about your look Talking about I can’t do it for you But you can do it for yourself Even though that ain’t so Baby cos my dough don’t know how to end But that independent thing i’m with it All we do is win baby I could be in love But i just don’t know Baby one thing is for certain Whatever you do it’s working All the girls don’t matter In your presence can’t do what you do There’s a million girls around but i don’t see no one but you Baby you’re so one in a million You are Baby you’re the best I ever had Best I ever had And i’m certain that There ain’t nothing better No there ain’t nothing better than this Girl you’re so one in a million You are Baby you’re the best I ever had Best I ever had And i’m certain that There ain’t nothing better No there ain’t nothing better than this Timing girl Only one in the world Just one of a kind She mine Ooh all that I can think about is what this thing could be A future baby Baby you’re one of a kind That means that you’re the only one for me Only one for me Baby (girl) you’re so one in a million You are Baby you’re the best I ever had Best I ever had And i’m certain that There ain’t nothing better No there ain’t nothing better than this Girl you’re so one in a million You are Baby you’re the best I ever had Best I ever had And i’m certain that There ain’t nothing better No there ain’t nothing better than this
Oh!! I wanna learn dance again. Hear the beat and yo yo yo! :):) Okay Im gonna crazy. I miss Hip Hop!!! I seriously missed it =.= I wanna dance like how they did. Its so smooth and nice..
I wanna perform. I wanna dance. I wanna sing and play the guitar. I wanna have my own gig. I wanna have my own photo exhibition.
Haha! But I think I aint working hard enough. Got to try harder. Save up all the money. For my future dream house. :) For my future instruments. My own recording room. :)
Baby, Your the best I ever had. Your one in a million. Indeed you are.
So Im gonna shape up myself :) Before I give myself to the prince :) Lalalaa~~ Gonna go school. Bye peeps :):)
♥There is always HOPE if you believe 10:29 AM
Had a little love but I spread it thin
Falling in her arms and out again
Made a bad name for my game round town
Tore out my heart and shut it down
PRE-CHORUS
Nothing to do, nowhere to be
A simple little a kind of free
Nothing to do, no one but me
That's is all I need
CHORUS
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely, yeah
Cause I don't belong to anyone
Nobody belongs to me
I see my friends around from time to time
When their ladies let em slip away
And when they ask me how I'm doing with mine
This is always what I say ...
PRE-CHORUS
Nothing to do, nowhere to be
A simple little kind of free
Nothing to do, no one to be
Is it really hard to see?
CHORUS
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely, yeah
Cause I don't belong to anyone
Nobody belongs to me
And this is not to say
There never comes a day
I'll take my chances and start again
And when I look behind
On all my younger times
I'll have to thank the wrongs
That led me to a love so strong
[INSTRUMENTAL]
CHORUS
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely, yeah
Cause I don't belong to anyone
And nobody belongs --
That's the way, that's the way
That's the way that I want it
That's the way, that's the way
That's the way that I want it
That's the way, that's the way
That's the way that I want it
That's the way, that's the way
That's the way that I want it
Im perfectly lonely to myself.
Congrats Hope. You did it all upon yourself :)
Your a nun for now. Unless you might change to lesbian.?
Opening application for lesbian!! HAHAHA! :)
♥There is always HOPE if you believe 9:46 AM
Michelle Mcmanus - How can sorry ever mend a broken heart
What can I say when words can't make it better?
What do I do when I can't forgive myself for what I've done?
Where can I go where memories aren't tearin' me apart?
How can sorry ever mend a broken heart?
How can I hope when everything is hopeless?
Why do I try when nothing I can do will bring you back?
Why do I dry my cryin' eyes when I know that tears will start?
How can sorry ever mend a broken heart?
You only ever treaded me so kind
Boy, I musta been stupid, out of my mind
I let you down one to many times
Now where can I go where memories aren't tearin' me apart
How can sorry ever mend a broken heart?
How could I have messed it up so bad?
Just throw away everything we had
Look in the mirror don't know who I am
What can I say when words can't make it better?
What do I do when I can't forgive myself for what I've done?
Where can I go where memories aren't tearin' me apart?
How can sorry ever mend a broken heart?
Why do I dry my cryin' eyes when I know that tears will start?
How can sorry ever mend a broken heart?
When I on my lappy. This song just came on. Great =.= Emo period. Really said What I wanted to say.
I dreamt of him again. This time was special. I think he was getting married. The bride.. I didnt get to see. But I saw how his face. Was smiling. Anxious for his princess to walk down that aile Getting ready to be his princess forever With flowers on her hand. Walking down that red carpet.
Then the end. Body clock woke me up. My lesson is like 12 to 1.
What am I gonna do after that? Er.. I don't know. Home? Evening Cellgroup. Been waiting for too long for this day. AND MOU YAN RAN IS NOT GOING! =.= She is having a date with MARTIN LEONG! Great! Never invite me! Haha! She said great things cannot share =.=
I met up with Tidus yesterday. Saw him in school LIKE FINALLY! For like the past few years we kept saying meet meet meet. Didnt meet =.= Then saw him in school, wanted call him. Lost his number.
We went back together. He is really a sua gu kid =.= Seriously! 179 so near his school! He didnt even know. Yeah! He said Kbox is next week! :) He treat! Wee!!
He owe me! After like so many years =.= Yan Ran kept saying bo jio .. Haha!
AND I GOT TO CLARIFY! FREAKING HELL WHOEVER KEPT SPREADING MY NUMBER! SERIOUSLY YOU NEED A PUNCH IN YOUR FACE! STOP BEING AN ASS AND SPREAD MY NUMBER IN YOUR RESERVICE CAMP!
Seriously, I thought prepaid card could stop me this kinda of nonsense. I come to realise. I guess its someone close to me? Cause I changed so many many many numbers
From 91512023 to 81134321 to 81821918 to now. Yeah I still remember all my numbers. And I think I received some kind of same kinda situation Some freaking guy spreading my number around. And I don't know who!
And guys who msg me saying all those ridiculous nonsense, please get a life.
♥There is always HOPE if you believe 8:57 AM
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Sometimes I think to myself..
Is he really the one?
I ask myself, why do I like him so much?...
♥There is always HOPE if you believe 11:54 PM
God is pretty amazing.. He told me to wait.
And I waited patiently, He called. I answered.
Got my stuffs from him.
Went back to school. :)
Learnt quite alot of stuffs today :)
First we had dynamics. Always had lots of practical..
We did particles inside the soda can thing.
Fire burning thing.. Which I still don't get it actually.
Needa redo and figure it out again.
I like dynamics module! Cause they are using Maya 2011.
I dun have my maya 2009 ever since my macbook crashed.
Now that its finally 2011. I can do my work in lappy. :):)
After that 3 hrs break, its Mr Pang's lesson.
Actually I kinda like wanting to learn.
BUT.. His lesson is always quite heavy. =.=
And Thanks for volunteering me for Orientation and Open House :) (like real)
Haha! I know Mr Pang love me too much already. Volunteer me.
Can't believe that I actually tell him straight in the face.
Confirm don't have me one! Hahaha!
But thanks Mr Pang :)
For being there for me. Never giving up on me. :)
Thank you for seeing my potential. :)
You and Mr TK, miss Clyda and all other lecturers the best.
Mr Pang had put in lots of great effort to make me stay on in DVE.
Hopefully didnt let him down this sem.
Gonna chiong chiong chiong!
We did mighty mouse! :):)
Apple rules :):) I wan my iphone 4!!
Where is quack quack? :):)
♥There is always HOPE if you believe 11:38 PM
Today is a special day to me. :)
I finally got to meet him. Its great :)
Thanks for the camera. :)
I will treasure it.
The feeling subsided..
Im tired.. Im sorry that I hurt you. Lets not fight anymore.
Just stay where we are until we know what we want.
♥There is always HOPE if you believe 10:51 PM
I lost count of how many days passed.
Im slowly picking up myself up.
Every morning had a same dream.
Waking up next to him. =.=
Every morning! The feeling was so real..
So so real. Every morning I jumped out of the bed.
Thought it was real.
I hope I could forever yours faithfully...
I hope everything could go.
All the hurts and pains would go.
I dreamt the part when you tell me your serious about me.
Ah.. Why God.. Remind me of those sweet memories that I lost.
Those memories were the happiest day of my life.
Sunday, October 31, 2010
11:44 AM
