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Her name is HOPE, Hope Aw Yan Sin. She is Nineteen this year. Her first smile was seen on 17 July 1991. She is currently pursuing her diploma at NYP, Digital Visual Effects. She's in love with photography, guitar and the special someone♥. She had great friends who are always by my side whenever she needs them. She is a Child of God and loving His people always. You may contact her @ hopeawys@live.com.

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Tuesday, October 28, 2008

I know i know i know..
I know that i lost my smiles.
This blog filled with all my unhappiness.
I was looking into my past blog.
How much smiles that i had on my face.
And look wats now. Nightmares.
Sad stories. Less photos.
Or rather. Not much smiling or even feel
like taking a photo.

Maybe i changed. Dun asked me why.
Stop pressurizing me asking me to change back.
I dont even know what was I e last time.
I guess im just overwhelmed by exams.
Im really very very very stressed out.
So if you think that i had changed.
Thinking tat you talking to me will change back.
Dun try. Cos i dunno how and ya. Its jus me.
Seriously. I dunno what hav i become?

I jus want to study. I jus wan to be e quiet girl.
I know i used to be noisy and all.
But im grew up. Im 17. There is alot of restrictions.
I got to be careful with my words and all.
Mostly i used to be super hyper.
But now i cant. Not anymore.
I got many responsibilities.
So just leave me alone..
if you think im not worthy as your friend.

Sometimes i dun understand why.
Why mus you keep calling me and ask me y am i like tat.
Im like.. What? Like what?
Where is e past you. Cheerful and dun think so much?
How can i not think so much when..
When my bro didnt giv me face in front of his friends
How can I not think when my bro does not feel proud of me
How can i not think when i had not much confidence in myself
Tell me!! How can i not think!!
How can i not think what my future brings
Who is going to take care of me??
Now might be my brothers
But what if they are married?
Will they dump me off?
I really dunno what e future will brings
I jus wan to do my job as a student well.

RAWR! Its so so so frustrating!!!
And to know that some ppl
wasted their life by doing stupid stuff
Some jus keep calling me at midnight
I know i know. U needed someone to chat
Okay. I will chat. But not when i hav exams
e next morning! Plus u chat with me is not like
important. Its jus some random like you eaten ur dinner?
AT 3.30am! And some will jus sms me in e morning
expecting me to reply your sms when i really dun wan to
When i already tell you that i dun wan to talk to you
Guess what he replied? I dun think you r Hope that is typing e msg
Still call me and asked if i receive your msg
Giving me that kind of stupid attitude. Where i told you im busy
Calling me when im having important meetings
And i got to cancel your call
You msg me saying that dun giv excuses
What the... GOD SAVE ME!!!
I was totally speechless. I jus wan to cry
These irritating ppl are jus getting on my nerves

CAN YOU FEEL MY FRUSTRATIONS?!?!?!?
Then whats now. Some ppl jus starting talking to me
And then he said i had changed
Im like.. Changed like wat?
Am i very close with you? Do i usually talk to you?
Then come telling me can you change back
LIKE WHAT!!!!
Then after that saying that
if u feel unhappy when contacting me then its ok
-.- you didnt tell me what i should do to change
You didnt tell me what was i last time
Or should i say i dun even know what was i like
Cos now is e new me

Even now being quiet is so hard
Being single is hard too
Some come and say
I really really love you
Y don you giv me a chance?
I really dun wan to get attached
After a messy whole lots of things.
Plus i really wan to settle down
Haix. I feel like running away from
all these guys whom i know
Seriously, making me vomit blood

I wish i jus be gone.

Hope♥

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